猜火車

這個月就要30歲了...

不知道為什麼我想到大學時看的一部電影，猜火車。我很喜歡裡面的開場白：選擇生活，選擇工作，選擇事業，選擇家庭，選他媽的大電視機，選洗衣機、車子、CD、電動開罐器，選擇健康、低膽固醇和牙醫保險、定息低率貸款，選擇房子，選擇朋友，選擇休閒服跟搭配的行李箱，選擇各種布料的西裝，選DIY，懷疑自己是啥？看心智麻痺的電視，嘴裡塞滿垃圾食物，最後整個人腐爛到底，在悲慘的家裡生一堆自私的混蛋小孩煩死自己，不過是難堪罷了，選擇未來，選擇生活，…我幹嘛做這些事？」

原文：
Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career.Choose a family.Choose a fucking plasma television. Choose washing machine, cars, DVD player and electrical tin openers.....choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit crushing reality show, stuffing junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than a embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life..........But why do I want to do a thing like that?............

我在高中大學時選擇了不選擇，上課下課睡覺，那時候很希望睡著後就不用在起床了。因為我覺得自己像個死人，我感覺不到我活著。可惜不選擇也是一種選擇，人生是一條單行道，就算哪天你想來一個帥氣的U turn也不行。所以後來我開始做一些選擇，因為他媽的不選擇也是一種選擇，而且結果通常都不好，所以只好他媽的選擇結果看起來會比較好的選擇。可是又會開始氣憤，他媽的為什麼要選擇結果看起來比較好的，為什麼要跟別人一樣？如果你覺得我瘋了，我也沒辦法否認，不過我相信應該有人會理解的XD

喵的～要30歲了，有個不好也不壞的碩士學歷，有一台豐田的小汽車，明年說不定有機會賺到人生的第一桶金。然後呢？然後呢？找老婆，買房子付貸款...然後呢？然後呢？這就是我最近常思考的問題。也是以前我困惑的問題，人生就是這樣子嗎？

好羨慕最後主角想開了，片尾旁白詞：選擇生活，就像你一樣，工作、家庭、他媽的大電視、汽車、洗衣機、CD音響、電動開罐器、健康、房貸、牙醫保險….然後等著翹辮子。不過這畢竟是電影，電影花了90幾分鐘想開，我卻要花一輩子去思考這個問題...Orz



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White roses on a grave
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Another only pain
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